Sunday, March 25, 2012


So not only have I been slacking on blog posts, even worse, I have been slacking in other departments as well.

No fast food?  That went down the drain.  I've gotten back into my old habit of having it at least once a week, and not only is it hard on my waistline, it's hard on my wallet too.

I have been slacking on the exercise too.  Starting tomorrow, some of the girls and I at work will be participating in Gundersen Lutheran's Minutes in Motion.  The premise is that you be active 30 minutes a day, or 210 minutes in a week.  Plus, there's some awesome prizes that you can win.  I am so ready to be back on track again, and hopefully work through some of these conflicting feelings that I'm going through.

Friday, March 19, 2010

Well, this is an update for Sharon, since I think you're the only one who reads it! :)

Things have been going very well lately. T-Minus 7 weeks and counting until graduation (May 15th to be exact). I can't believe how insanely fast this semester has gone by. I went to Neenah on Wednesday to visit my cousin, and to see her preschool, which I will be working at come August. Seeing it made me even more excited to begin working, it was so cute! Cory & I also went to look at apartments, and I found the most wonderful little loft apartment. Or well, it isn't so little, it's so bright and open! I am so excited to move. I will be moving in May, and hopefully finding a job to tide me over until I start working at the preschool. Then, we took a little side trip, as Cory has never been to Green Bay. So, I treated him to a good time at Lambeau Field, and he was like a kid in a candy store, it was great! :D

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

So. I really don't think anyone reads this anymore. Once again it's been 4 month-ish since I've posted. But I thought this would be a good place to go and vent about some of the things that have been going on with me in the past couple of months.

Recently, I've been going to see a therapist. Honestly, I've wondered if I was depressed, but being a psychology major, I just figured I was self-diagnosing and wrote it off as the blues. I always figured that I couldn't be depressed, because things would always get better. For a little while anyways. Then, they would get bad again. Really bad. And when I was getting upset over the stupidest little things (like a boy, who wasn't even worth getting that upset over), or constantly being irritated and snapping at my friends when they weren't even doing anything, and sleeping my summer away, mom made me call and make an appointment. I knew something was wrong, I couldn't stop crying for the life of me. So I started going to sessions. The first one, I broke down and bawled my eyes out, while the doctor just listened. That was almost enough for me. I couldn't believe how much better I felt, just having someone listen to me for once. Then, he diagnosed me with Anxiety and Depression. He suggested that I go to the Student Health Center and get some medication to help me with it. I know a lot of people I talked to told me that I wasn't crazy, and that I didn't need pills to fix my depression, and that I could just pull myself out of it. Oh, like I really hadn't tried to just pull myself out of it before? Believe me, if I could have, I definitely would have. One thing was that I didn't want to be that girl. I don't want to be the depressed girl, who uses her depression as an excuse for everything, or being sad all the time. But I realized I didn't have to be. I started taking medication, and it is crazy how much it has helped. Which, I don't know if it is the medication, or me changing, but I'm guessing it's a combination of both. I feel like for the first time since I can remember, I am truly happy. I've realized I can be single and be happy. I don't need a guy to complete me (and why I didn't realize this earlier, don't ask me). I don't need to please everyone, saying "NO" every once in awhile will not make me a bad person. Sure, I'll have to disappoint some people, but that happens. I need to watch out for myself, because I'm the only one who can make myself happy. I haven't cried in a long time (ok, I did yesterday, but I had good reason), but now I am kind of getting that feeling back. I don't know if it's just because of some of the stupid things that have happened in this past week, or what, but I'm hoping it goes away soon. You have to take the good with the bad, and I've realized that.

Well, Kudos to anyone who actually read that. I'm doubting anyone will, but it feels good to get it off my chest.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Wow.. so it's been almost 4 months since I've updated this thing. But anyone who reads/read it knows where to find me on Facebook. And if not, well then, you're not that special :) Or, you could just ask. haha.

Monday, February 16, 2009

I'm tired....

of everything.

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

I know I don't update this much anymore, but well.. anyone who reads this has a facebook or knows what's going on in my life anyway.

So, I just want to say, prayers for mommy, please. She's going through a very rough time :(

Saturday, January 03, 2009

Ok, so I'm a little late, but Happy New Year! I hope everyone had amazing holidays and had a great time with family and friends.
I'm back in La Crosse, just having some alone time and waiting for class to start on Tuesday. I'm taking a J-term, still hoping that I will be able to graduate on time. And then I'll have to start looking for an internship soon... but oh well.. just worry about that when time comes.
I was reading back through my old entries and it's kind of weird to see all the things that have happened since freshman year. I feel like time has flown by and really can't believe this is my 3rd year already and that I'm even worried about graduating soon. And there were a lot of firsts for me as well.
So, here's to hoping 2009 kicks 2008's butt! :)